I have been sitting here thinking tonight, drooling over all the awesome gear I see on this site. Then I sort of became curious if others wrestle with themselves about the same things I do, or if it's just me being too worried about things. I see gear that I want and I see gear that I could really use. Some items are cheap enough that I can buy after some deliberation, and others require me to save. The items I buy have.... personal value to them, because each purchase is thought about and checked against the tight budget. Even the inexpensive items are important to me, and bum me out if lost or broken. Sometimes I can't get exactly what I want and have to settle for something similar. This is mostly because of cost. Now, I can save for it, but sometimes the time needed save enough becomes unreasonable. Or (being a single father of 3), once I have that amount saved, I find that the saved amount can be better spent. If we're talking a few hundred dollars, it could be something like taking the kids on a rare trip to the zoo, or some other place special. To me, a $40 knife is a couple weeks worth of saving. What I've learned, though, is I can save money by spending more now, in some cases. A $5 knife will need replacing frequently which will end up costing more in the long run. So, I try to buy items I think will last, and with good warranties with companies with good CS. For example: After joining this forum, I learned more about knives and purchased a Kershaw Scallion. Let me tell you, this was the most expensive knife I have ever owned and it felt GREAT in my hand. It has taken a beating and I'm proud to carry it. Really, I sit there sometimes and look at my EDC and just admire it, because (as sad as it sounds) it's some of the finest things I've ever owned. And it's taken almost two years to acquire what I have. This leads me to the point of my post (after much rambling, sorry!), I really have taken a big interest in knives and flashlights - mostly due to this forum. It's something that I'm ready to treat as a "hobby", and treat myself to. Here is where my problem lies. I'm not ready to save money to spend on anything for the sole purpose of collecting. Anything I buy will be used and abused lol! I've been looking at getting a Spyderco. Nothing expensive, around the $40 range. Should be no big deal, but I just can't bring myself to pull the trigger on it without feeling guilty. It's not that I feel guilty about buying it, it's that I feel guilty about buying one when I already have a perfectly good knife that I carry and use everyday. If I were to get it, and really liked it, I would only want to carry that and then my Kershaw would retire. I could tell myself that I would rotate, but I've been down this road before with other things. What happens is, I start thinking that if I don't carry the new item, then I didn't need it and shouldn't have bought it. If I only carry the new item, then I would be thinking that my old knife is being wasted and once again think that I shouldn't have bought the new one. I don't really have this problem when buying a new item that will serve a new purpose, or improve an old one. Well, unless the price gets crazy. One thing this forum has taught me, is that EDCers come from all over and from every demographic. Some prefer to buy things to collect, others to use, and even more do both. This is obviously something I just need to get over, but I was curious if any other EDCers, on tight budgets, ever had this struggle within themselves, or similar internal battles.